<> surreality~* reality=-

me

2005-01-21T06:18:00.000-08:00

Lols.. so long never post le. Lotsa things happen. I HATE HER. cant help it seriously. Tired of feeling so freakin sick of her. this yr got more responsibilities sia... being a treasure sux..

TAKE NOTE

Most hated QUESTION of the year: Who is the class treasurer?

<_<

geez... HAISH.. shinhwa.

lols...

2004-12-11T05:50:00.000-08:00

okies. im updating my blog. due to people harrassing me*glares at abby* =Pp. hehe. on 2nd december. MEEEE!! Finally got a dongsengie!! =D hahha. yupp. Spent the hols on shinhwa. everyday watch show. hahaa. now im on de craze of editin pictures. woooh0ooo... wanna seeeee?! XD
hahaha. this fri i our sch band concert!!! soo happi. veri paiseh to go lei as i just highlighted my hair. it was SUPPOSE to be white.

FUCKED

2004-11-22T06:11:00.000-08:00

fuck FUCK FUCK!!! im greatly pissed. FUCKED OFF!

no longer me

2004-11-08T03:26:00.000-08:00

imrealliconfused.thisisthefirsttimeimwritingsodamnillegibly.iamatlostofwhattodowithmyself.imtiredofhearingthesameoldthingtoo.friendsknowofmeasabitch.goodfriendsknowofmeashappygolucky.truefriendsknowofmeasemotional.guessireallydopotraysthreedifferentimage.imscaredofbeinghurt.thefeelingofbeingbetrayedstungmedeeply.itsreallipainful.nowait.icannotusedpainful.painfulistoolightofawordtobeused.lifeisironic.itrustedyetwasbetrayed.lyfeisreallifullofregrets.

I Trusted
But You
Turned It
Upside down
And
Betrayed Me

shinhwa adventures

2004-10-09T08:32:00.000-07:00

yesterdae after exams... i went to the airport to see shinhwa!!! lots of peeps there and yupp i met up with bee unniex... mich n mich followed too... then both of them were veri bored... then the fans at the entrance screamed whenever they see someone whu wears hats -.-" lata mich n mich went to macdonalds... but b4 that, they went outside to help me check whether shinhwa left? aren't they sweet??? ^^ hehehex... then when they came out of macdonalds... they heard screams cuz SHINHWA is reealli coming.... then they jux turn right and saw the WHOLE of shinhwa!!! I WAS JUMPING UP and down like a monkey... in the end i resorted to climbing the barricade... ok... i admit that i am insane... Minwoo was unfortunately short! I didnt see minwoo's face, junjin and dongwan.... so didnt went home with a satisfying feeling!!! =P
Wahahhahahax... then todae... i was suppose to meet up wiht ingrid unnie but my mom was late in the end so i cancelled it... then lataa i went to raffles city to buy an orange shirt... then met up with bee unnie... then went to padang... i was somehow in the front rows too... waited from 3.30 to like 8pm for shinhwa!!! arghhhh.... i have to bear with Zetan's brother stupid trance music that realli puts me off to sleep but some r nyce... wahhahahax... when shinhwa came... i was like obviously screaming like crazy... couldnt contain my excitement... after awhile... i was feelin no excitement... then i realised tt the quality was realli good like those vids tt i downloaded!!! woooh00oooo!!! minwoo was veri cheeky... hehehex... sayin that sg girls are sexy.... wakakkakakakkax.... hehehex.... minwoo realli RAWKS my wurld... they performed perrfect man, t.o.p, hey come on, first love, angel and then brandnew which ended with lots n lots of fireworks. i didnt bother to chase after shinhwa after their perf which is wurt i am realli regrettin now...
bee unnie and her unnies went to chase... and i think one of unnie got to TOUCH MINWOOO, blow FLYING KISS to JUNJIN and was RETURNED!!! TWO INCHES away from andy... OMG.... if this really happens to me... i would have faint... serious... I mean TOUCH minwoo????!!! my dream lorxh!!! lolx!!! no larxh... i think tt actualli my dream even more perverted... =P haiz... i now could not sleep... too much excitement le... hehehex

Get real

2004-09-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

LOLx! Get real! GUYS do suck for real! Why? Regardless whether they got the looks or the brains, they still thinks that they are the best. Now! What is this called? No wonder millions of girls got their heart broken just because of a bunch of monkeys from the opposite sex! Now thinking about it, they do have their 'PRIDE'. yeahx... can you sense my sarcasm? They need to face up to the reality and STOP dissing girls. C'mon so what if guys go for army and girls do not? BUT DO GUYS give birth!? Do not give me any shity reason to cover up. ok fine. I am in a pissed off mood. I should learn how to communicate with my mom. Sad case. My only worry now is whether i got promoted. My english is literally hopeless. It just cannot get through my thick brain. I made a bad choice, i wants to go back to being in a girl's school. MIXED sch suckx. Exams are coming and i am going to die. I just cant stand guys criticising girls that they looks DUMB when they arent even better themselves. I shall do a tell it all today. Let start with a frequently asked question.
Why did i wanted to quit band?

The peeps suck! (no offense)
Seniors are cold (just my point of view)
I do not fit in (you all are just too biatch)
No sense of achievement
Not my type of cca
Too active for me
Teachers suck

Sum it all. To others i may be deemed as a LOSER! But who cares? To those who want to join the band just because they won the SYF this year! An advice to you. Get a life! It is not that easy and furthermore you have not (i repeat) have not experienced outdoor. So shut up and get lost!

Want to play another instrument
Like the BAND (sorry peeps, not you)

Practically there is like no point for me to stay band! HELLO! I can befriends people with attitude but definitely NOT bitches. Sorry to all.

Now reading lords of the rings! lolx. Hey mdm faridah! What's wrong with reading it now? I mean, you encourages us to read more books right?

Class was scolded by principal. Are they dumb or just plain stupid? Perhaps both. IT WAS THE GUYS. We were like being victimised!!! Who wants to be in this crappy school with no righteous and logic. Considering the fact that our school values are suppose to carve out our characters! I feel like LAUGHING OUT LOUD. Just because our class are more straightforward. More open. We do not do it the sneaky way and we get scolded. If this is the case, there is no reason why GOD wants to end this world.

Ok fine. I am really shitting out my thoughts. I cannot help it could i? Life suck. Whats up with biatches and jerks.
To all readers. If it is too offensive, sorry. Just a personal opinion of mine.

wahahhax

2004-09-03T20:29:00.000-07:00

it has been sooo long since i had posted... hmm... gettin physical tiredness... hols juz arrived! lolx! SHINHWA coming 9th of OCTOBER- my BIRTHDAE MONTH!!! =D wahahhahahx... i am anticipating their arrival... hopin to see minwooooooo =P kekkekeke... the featured song is again 'how do i say" but ther mv of it!!! it r0x man!
[How do I say nan neol sarang
hae oh raet dong ahn neo man eul pa rae wat seo
How do I say nan neo reul weon hae
oh jil nae ahn neh neo boon in keol
How do I say nan neol sarang hae
oh raet dong ahn neo man eul pa rae wat seo
How do I say ee jhen ni mam eul mal hae jool rae
na reul ni ahn neh pad do jool rae]

[[How do I say I I love you
For a long time I've wished for only you.
How do I say I want you
Inside of me is only you.
How do I say I love you
For a long time I've wished for only you.
Now will you tell me your heart?
Will you accept me into your heart? ]]

hahahhaax... dortx... i am seriously gettin quite bo liao! hmmm... i know lets talk bout my common test which sux?!
49/50
total: 68/75 = maths (got improvement! but i am second in class??? nooo!!!!! =( )
53/100
total: 44.5/75 = chinese (wanted to cry when i saw it)
total: 37.5/75 = english
total: 34/75 = history (failed T.T)
total: 33.5/50 = home econs.
total: 46/75 = geog (lots of improvement!!! =D)
total: 40+/75 = lit (okay lorxh...)

Ta-da! This was how badly i had done! -.-" Studyin seriously sucks hella lot! Goin to watch Stepford wives later! seeeee ya~

jk

2004-08-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

mmm... i dunno how i feel...yeahx..im physically n mentally tired! i donch know why! The pang of guilt that has hit me is growing rapidly ...i hate to be e un lovin..to be loved is soo much more better! Drownin myself with thousands of reasons, i still cant gave up... but i know i should...you donch belonged to me...i hatex myself

finally

2004-08-04T03:24:00.000-07:00

wooooah...i finally posted..lolx..mani things hav happened...im here to talk bout mr unknown..nid somethin to crap too...haiz..
you occupied my mind, clouded my thoughts but how could you steal my heart?
we were two different ppl from two diff wurld
two different mindsets with two different thoughts
two different background n two different dreams
two different fate with god arranging our destiny
were we fated?
i waited with bated breath
i had fallen for you unknowingly
eating longans
killing antx
goin to marche
was all a dream
it was actually mindless infatuation
my senses awoke, you graced my heart and plucked the forbidden flower
It was you all along
Mr Unknown, your name will not be revealed
If i had my way
I wan to die with this secret
When i wake up, we are no longer friends but strangers
At least both of us are happy
Tho you make tears stung my face upteen times
Your troubled face could make me fear
You are actually my joy?
e the affairs of the heart, i wished, long forgotten
Time passes very fast
Our distance are somehow further than before
Perhaps it was i don't know you then
I won't fight or clawed like a scavenger
This is obviously an unfruitful lurve
You hurt me tons with yr words
I actually minded it
How foolish of me not to discover it earlier
Now it is too late to turn back
No words for regrets
I could cry, laugh and smile just because of you
How funnie!
Never meant to be...never

beeeg

2004-07-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

i am sooo exhausted *yawns*...my eyes is strugglin to be keep open...juz juz soo tired...todae went out with michelle they all...suppose to buy present for mich...okies...lets start from after we finished school. After school, we have to stay back for the lit hmk...i was lyke REFERRING to chow chow's un...then lata me n jeff,dear,darlinx n weitin went to the backgate to wait for cyn n chow chow...then the ice-cream man whu was sellin ice-cream n we were quite tempted so each of us got ourself a cone...then after lyke waitin for 15mins? we juz realise tt chow chow n cyn went for de sci rememdial *ps:i skipped it~*...dejected...the rain starts to get heavier...we were resort to sharin umbrellas...dear share with my darlinx...n jeff share with weitin...i occupy one my self -_-"....so sad tt my 'darlinx' neva come...haixz..then i dragged them to eat KFC...wahahhahahaz...we ate cheese fries..hmm...whipped potato n banditos...*LES ACT~* then cuz my dear was lyke mixin the whipped potato...it turns out to be lyke gruel...it was dayam dayam gross....then my darlinx was lyke turnin awae...then i started singin my own version of songs..wack un durhz...example ' a moment lyke this...both of them are actin crazy...for tt one special thing..to gain l.y.y's attention...oooh i karnt belive they are chokin on pepsi...a moment for a laughter...a moment lyke this..'n erm...this un is used to describe my darlinx...mm...'a moment lyke this...michele is chokin on pepsi...for a moment lyke this...such a digustin sight...for that one special scene... oooh i karnt believe the pepsi went down the noseeee..some people wait a lyfe time...for a moment to this a scene..'wahahhahaaz..funnie ryte....hehhee...then in e end...both of them went to the toilet after finishin their things...i shuld realli consider de profession of being a clown...thats not bad ryte..? i was demostratin to my 'darlinx' how to laugh while readin a book n yew muz be able to control it....hehehe...in e end arxh...JK tot i was crazeeee...serious...ooooh yah..back to the thingy...then hor after lunch ryte...we went to buy my dear's bear bear lorhz...but hor..nobodi wana share le...then suggest JK share with me ....so meet up with those two guy then we share...after buyin...he hav to leave for tuition...LOLx...hahhaz...then i dragged them to the ice-cream parlour...that was my second ice-cream for de dae...chow chow bought one also...after lyke sooo mani acitivities ryte...then we head to the library..then my darlinx helped me to carry the bear bear...then its lyke veri pai-seh cuz the whole library when i went in was sorta starin at me as i was carryin a huge plastic bag...haiz...then i was 'teachin' her mathx...l0lx...somehow we kana end up playin truth or dare...ahhahaz...then after that...we take bus home...veri the embarrassed maaaan....cuz the whole bus was lyke starin at me as i was carryin the beeeg beeeg bear....-,-"
mood => grumpy
adios~

nitex

2004-07-06T06:57:00.005-07:00

yoooz...wazzup?...lamez man me...todae is juz another borin dae except for de fact tt todae no conference lehz...i teell yew all okies...havin conference is the most bo liao thingy but our conference r0x man...all de confessions come out de...wahahhaaz...let see...i went for my apointment on tuesdae..i wait lyke for one hour...shux lorh...then hor...i keep eatin tibits n CHOCS...wooohooo!!!!..yupp...i tink reach home bout 6 larhz...then i eat my dinnerr...yumm...wahahhaaz...i still can remember it sooo clearly tho it is tuedae...muahahahhahaz...then start my usual activities of surfin de net and so on =P
let seee....im gonna shortcut wed n thurs...wahahaahhazz...on wed..the crew was sayin tt they goin to PP...then ask me as usual...i refused bcuz i got tuition lata n i din do my hmk yet =X... but hor...i succumb to my 'dear' puppy face..haix..in e end...i also folled -_-ll...sheesh...then on thurs...my 'dear' ask me to help her for maths but i seriously karnt cuz got hmt lorhz...then durin art hor..we were playin TRUTH or DARE...waahhahahaz...everi wk play this game..>< but hor i donch feel sianz...cuz got someone to tease marhz...heheez... then hor...my 'darlinz' suppose to confess but hor...somehow we din even got to hear de confession...LOlx...tts whieee...not fair ryte..ive been feelin less pressurized as somebodi din bother me le...wahahahahahahahahahaz...then HOR...still got somebody to tease marhz...payback tyme...whahahhaa...i siaoz liao...its lyke dayam obvious..
Muahahahhaazz...now to fridae...after the usual in school...i was throwin paper balls at JK on the prev days...wahahhaz...i kana missed lorhz..sheesh...then somehow ryte...he calls me "pigsy" ?!?!?! when the hell did i eva giv him tt priority...shux man...then after sch ryte...me n my 'darlinx' was SUPPOSE to walk to chung cheng then i stopped at the 24 hours shop thingy then i saw cherie n the usuals...so i joined them for lunch...my 'darlinx' went opposite to buy 8 daes as the shop din seelll...then when she came bax...she told me tt that 'arsehole' is there...i am lyke 'so wot? he shux big tyme' then i kena scolded by yu ping sayin tt i ' kou shi xing fei' sheeesh..donch hav to make it seeeeems that obvious marhz...
on sat ryte...i kena overslept..then in e end i went for my tuition late lorhz..then lata in the afternoon...i had a nyce chat with my 'darlinx'...at nitex i got tuition then my 'dear' called...my bro picked up my hp..then my 'dear' tot it was me playin a game with her then after lyke several times of askin then realise is my bro..hahahaaz...it was lyke hilarious...hehehee...haiz...tmr hav to wake up earli for tuition...okies...sweet dreamz...adios~

leslie

2004-07-06T06:57:00.001-07:00

"Leslie was supposed to be bright, and beautiful, and brittle, and bitchy forever. ... [But] when Leslie Cheung killed himself he was just a guy... a guy who was looking in the mirror and seeing a receding hairline, an expanding waistline, a lack of options. He didn't see the hopes and dreams we had all projected onto him, he was seeing lines around his eyes that he had never seen before. ... And he was lonely, so lonely that he couldn't bear the thought of being alive for even one more minute. ... I look at Leslie Cheung in The Chinese Feast and I can't make the guy on-screen the guy in the hotel room who killed himself. ... Trying to reconcile these two men makes my heart ache and my eyes water."

lost

2004-07-06T06:57:00.000-07:00

harl0x everione...haix...i am juz feelin depress...sheesh..i was listenin to the late leslie cheung "shen qing xiang you"...it is ne of my fav songs...i then wanted to find de lyrics so i went to search for his webbie...i chance upon once memorial site...this song was written and sang in the year 1995..i saw anita mui's link to the memorial site at the bottom...i couldnt believe my eyes...i thought that she still alive...guess...i wasn't much affected by her death...it then just dawn on me that the music industry is losing talents...tho leslie was a gay...he excel in the areas of musix...his voice was good...its such a pity that he jumped...i remembered when i received news of his death...i thought my mum was kidding me...i lyke one of his movie,"phantom of the opera"...Leslie and Anita are no longer alive...it seems to be a fact that we human have to accept...its a pity...a real pity...it amazing...hearin their songs may make you think that they are still alive...but we muz face up to reality...live in un predictable...i was never a fan of him...but i respected him...its juz seems veri argh...that someone like him might die...though he was eccentric and so on...he was still a good guy...a good man...a good singer...and a good artiste which brings glory to the chinese music industry...its a lost which we chinese cant afford to have...

I have not been myself this few days...juz pure usual moody and grumpy and along de way discoverin secrets...i rather not know it..its hurtin when yew are tempted to tell someone so that the truth may be out...but the effects are also detrimental...its hurtin to be the middle person...after facin some situations...i felt guilt..yesh...GUILT...terrible...wallowing in misery...a terrible feelin...juz karnt get rid...

mon-wed

2004-06-30T02:42:00.000-07:00

okies! im bax here again...whahahaha...so shen qi ryte? im postin a 3-days in one post? im sure got such tings...hahhaz. of course lyke DARHZ tt on mondae i went to school...haix...the GUYS juz haix...and of course...i got LACK of sleep due to tokin to sl@cker until 2.30 a.m. i think? lets see...we were jus referin each other hmk onlyne n of cuz tokin craps? we were crammin logic n reasons or woteva into our brains! hahaz...lamexz ryte? yeahz...i noe! then i dunk down two cups of cuppa...woah...delicious man..for once i manage to make it taste nyce!!! =)n i can tell yew it was realli a miracle CUZ all my last attemptS failed. =( yep...hehez..poor me ryte?
now is lyke 11.15pm? i hav been wurkin on my home ec. n how long has it takes...hmm lets see....more than 3 hours n my doc. is stil BLANK!?! unbelievable ryteeee....im sooo tired...juz feel lyke sleepin...i got eye bags le l0hz...my av amt of sleep for this 3 daes is lyke less than 5hours...yew can imagine how lifeless i loook...n it was a miracle tt i din sleep durin classes...wellz...perhaps maths...de new teacher sux lohz..dunno teach wot crap...thinkin tt im still in elementory sch or something tho its a gd thing tt we can slack but i donch lyke it when its lyke shes not teachin us anithing...yup i mean nothing USEFUL...!!!
Im in a grumpy mood as everione can see or hear or woteva larhz...stupid kelvin n rizwan din giv me de wurkout thingy...gosh...STREESSSS....arghhhh...i wan to vent it all out...heard tt mich callin me at 3 am to wake me up...if i karnt wake up...atmost die lohz...i still got my higher chi/home ec/pe/eng tuition...my eyelids are half-close...n actualli lyke 1/2 of the text im typing with my eyes half closed...belive it or not..its sounds dayam "interestin" rite...yeahz..RIGHTz...zZZZZzzz....sleepy me...alot of things happen this few daes...
Haizxx...ya noe wot? my resolution poem is no longer NEEDED cuz someone is happi lez..hehehe...n cyn with her "ding dong" hahahaz...sat got SYF!!! muz support TK BAND!!! OR else yew DIEEEE!!!! stupid jie mei keep on disturbin me durin home ec...this tyme lucky neva kana caught by teacher...hahaz..they were goin on bout stupid stuffs n RIGHT infront of me...being around them arhz...i tell yew arhz that my tolerance level is going higher than wot i expected...shit...soo much to do...so lil tyme..haix...donch tink i should continue...lazi le...sleepin liao
grumpy me~
gdnitex

diana bdae

2004-06-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

wahahhaa...now is lyke 12.27 am? Woah! ITS morning and yew noe wot? I still LEFT tons OF HOMEWORK!! yup...juz came bax from piggy's bdae party!!! wheee!!! cool ryte??? hahaz...meet someone future hubbiee....hehez? its coolz...the party and all...i met CHRISTINE..hahaz...so long neva see her liaoz...lamerz..haha =) we had a fun tyme together...somebody future hubbie osho quite nyce lahz... =P...her cousins rawk!!! wheeee....we ate lots of things..haix...my tummy growing...all those flabs of FATS...yeahz...satay...chicken wing...hog dog? hahaz...haix...growing fatter...wot to do?? i still left 18 pages of chinesex...sucky man.. =( my maths n sci,lit is still pending...sad...my game of truth n dare was GONECASE.whie? i osho dunno? hahaz...i pity someone? hehehez..im crappie lohz..yup...n i karnt tok to anyone..argh...how depressing...isn't it? hahaz..yew noe todae...got mou mou ren came with two frens..hehez..chel said that the taller un was AB...n the shorter un was BISW..hahhaz...we were all laughin? the guyz wasn't inviting but orh welz...whu cares ryte? hahaz...the mou mou ren OF CUZ the worst lahz..bleh...soo bad ryte of me...but still...piggy was veri pissed off...i mean...whu wouldn't be? argh...n..haix...nothin to say...christine is lyke dayam FIT...wellz...i ENVY her... ><" ..ahhaha...whot should i do bout myself? perhaps excersise more...yup...piggy's father is soo pleased with sombody future hubbiee...hahaz...but he osho quite poor ting?...sheesh..the mou mou ren was tokin bout things tt piggy's father donch lyke n in the end...she was veri...can see smoke comin out of her head..tho can see shes tryin to be GRACIOUS..hahaz...poor her...her parents was veri nyce. Paxton was veriiii cuteee~!!!! hehehez...me n chel had loads of fun...it juz feel so good to be goofin around again...haix...mou mou ren juz spoils everione's mood...hahaz..ya noe wotz? I GAVE piggie a BOOK...hahaz...she was lyke veri annoyed...cuz she donch LYKE readin..wellz..the bk title attracted me,"dirty girls special club" hahaz...cutee ryte? Chel's letter to piggy was lamerz..it cracks all of us up...still got stomachache....weird hor...i spent 4 hours shoppin for her present...*ps..actualli hor..i went shoppin for my bag n all tt =X*...hahaz...i went from chinatown to simei then to her CHALET...and i lost my way..orh wellz...woteva?......pure lamerz...me n chel was lyke a BICKERIN couple...but orh wellz...can yew believe it? piggy's sis tot we were TWINS? how funniee...hahahz...lamez..kekkee...im still not sleepin..perhaps soon..goin to spend de whole of tmr doin hmk..haix..sianz...hahaz...sweet dreamz kies
Adios

continuation

2004-06-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

continuation~*

Summer and Spring

Sunshine, Summer, it all ryhmes
Golden sun rays, soft beach
Soda in a hand, with babes around us
Tanned with hot body appeals to everyone within limits
Sexual was not the right word
It should be sexy
Happiness surrounds it
No pain or anger lives
The roots grow, flowers blossom
A place where innocence once grew
Human's nature ruined it all
As poor summer meets it doom...

Now left lonely Spring
Waiting for love to pass by and took it's place
Deprives of attraction but gained pity
Unable to make a judgement, we sadly wait
Many new lifes bloomed
Bearing fruits for generations
Cruelty of many has killed it
With attitude and hatred
Spring arose
The anger it accumulates
Uglier it becames
As lovely Spring was growing roots
Evil and long was the outcome
Unable to stop it...

yup

2004-06-25T02:36:00.000-07:00

a new day has begun? hahaha...lamez..lah..im bored...piles of hmk...all waitin for me to do..hehe

yeahz

2004-06-24T01:54:00.000-07:00

haix...after a humilating afternoon yesterdae..my frens still find it funnie!!...sheesh...hahahaz...actualli...think of it...it is HILARIOUS...FLYIN SHOE??..whahahahhaha..okies...i admit im abit mad...p0em of de dae is gonna be up lata...yup..n im changin de SONG again!!!WHEEE!!

cinea

2004-06-23T06:17:00.000-07:00

sheesh...im so embarassed. IF ANY of yew were at orchard todae n SAW a flyin shoes...well...donch relate it to ur friends. ><" well...it wasn't really my fault..cuz mich went backwards n i was behind her. Just i was about to lift my legs, she stepped on it...and there goes the SHOE. It was lyke at least 3 metres away. Right in de middle of de road. Whats worst is...yew wanna noe? It is de fact that i was wearin PINK socks. Well...it is HOT pink...soo not tt bad lahz...But still... sighs~* Off goes my frens laughin -_-ll I was too shocked n stumped to pick up my shoes. In de end, mich help me to take. *thankful* YEW noe where it was? Right in de middle of de road outside Orchard MRT. There goes my reputation. Todae i wake up earlie, no thanks to mich even tho she was the un whu promise to wake me up! =P hahahaz...Xy is still laughin on de inccident...regretted tellin her...but orh wellz...YEAHZ...im in a HAPPI mood cuz all MATTERS RESOLVE!!! ^-^ hehhee....lovely is my mood todae. Went to watch de best bet todae with Althea n mich. DAMN funnie n lame...still remember de part on BUTT cleanin de CHAIR...butt rubbin i think? hhahaz..purely hilarious...i juz karnt erase de stooopid inccident from my mind. Haix...perhaps? hehhez

elements

2004-06-22T09:08:00.000-07:00

You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy,
social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's
day. You are very kind and a real people person
because you have several friends (or atleast
should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable
and your stunning looks are sweet and stand
out.

autumn/winter

2004-06-22T09:06:00.000-07:00

Continuation~

Winter and Autumn

Autumn leaves an indelible impression
Covering it was hurt and sadness
Leaving wounded heart for cure
Misery lays upon the soul and
Sadly they do sow
Withering leaves bore memories
We know they once lived
Yellowish-orange, the combination is
A true beauty Autumn is
Loneliness lingers in the appearance
As it shed its tears
Wondering the cause
A mystery...

Winter, the ice princess
Myths and legends hold it to death
Icy chills the bones in you
Brace with void emotions
Pure innocent it may seems
Beneath lays stories to be unfold
Once melted, it may die
Only a fiery heart comforts it
Tamed not wild, original it was
A virgin we claimed it to be
Sadly, it was raped of worldly desires
Sadness reappear...

*sorrie for my latex post.hav been feelin sleepii!! ><" anw...Adios~*

tues

2004-06-21T17:42:00.000-07:00

hEhE...YuP...nCYe TueSdae moRNing!!! SAW de MINBONGIE picc le marh??? HOT ryte? yep...the mv now is "i swear" by S. Comprises of Lee Jihoon, Kangta, Shin hyesung. WOOOOOOTTT!!!! CUTE guys ALERT!!! yep...mich n Yt comin my house lata...hahaz...we r gonna do"HMK". nyce ryte? we r such gd lil angels...hahaz...cannot type liao....gotta go n pack up my room... =X..
Adios

part one

2004-06-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

F0uR sEas0nS

Prologue

Autumn, Winter, Summer and Spring
Each with their own desire and beauty

2004-06-20T22:12:00.000-07:00

Post 0F e DaE

song " eusha eusha"
~~~~
a nyce way to brighten up a moody mondae!!!
=)

mondae blues

2004-06-20T21:57:00.000-07:00

sheesh...nyce mondae. Im stuck at home waiting for de docs to call. I havent touch any of my hmk yet! Loookin at it just turns me off. The quarrel is still isn't resolved. Its quite boring. The onli companion is my computer. Feel so bored. What should i do? I am not in de mood to update my fic either. Boring. The weather is soo uncertain. Doubt there will be poem of the dae for todae? I don't know. I am going to changed the music again.Hahaz..lamerz me.
My life just feels soo crappy. YT called me todae. Shes gonna make a personalised layout for me!! wheeeee!!!!! Sighs~* Hasnt found anyone who is willing to go with me to watch the best bet. All of them ot free. So long neva contact Xy. Karnt find her. Should i follow chel's advice "void of emotions". Maybe i should, its becuz of my reluctantness that leds me to my state. Swirling in de world of depression and confusion. Emotions and feelings is the roots of all evil. Without them, perhaps life would be so much better.
I juz found out that there are such things as HIMBO...hahahhaaz..it is used to symbolise a MALE bimbo. bimbo doesnt mean anything bad. It just means BABY. Guess there are more hidden meaning. Im too lazy to do anything. My piano is my onli commitment. What to do. It has captured my soul. Not sure whether i should cancel the tuition. Theres so lil tyme but so much things to do.
Band is stll an issue for me. Not sure when is the matter resolved. Hopefully by this week. I am heavily burdened. Who can help me lighten it? No one, i guess. Guilt arose in me. Should be natural i guess. Lovesick soul? Perhaps? All my unnies are heavily burdened by affairs of the heart. It is a forbidden fruit for me. I have ate it and have regrets. Hope to get rid of it before it gets any deeper. Uproot it is the best. My feelings is gone by a lil bit, dae by dae. It should be betta. At the end of the yr. I wanna see a healthy heart, no longer bleeding,wounded or scarred. My only wish.

p0eM oF E dAe

2004-06-20T03:06:00.000-07:00

Feelings

Love is desired by living things of all
It reaps and sow like nature
A big symbol it is
Representing lots of thing
Evil or good
It depends on each kinds
It was never meant to be calculated
Or can it be desscribed
It was one of its kind
Heart races as love graces it
Stuttering became a compulsory
Soft-hearted we grew to be
As love was deeply rooted
It was suppose to be everlasting
But...it was just not meant to be
The roots was clawed out
Claws made from the jaws
Of jealousy, hatred and revenge
Are we happy at last?
A question which we cant answer
Words would not express it
Actions cannot take over it
Perhaps, this is what we called love
Muddled feelings bundled up
Being hurt like thorns piercing
Remember, it was once innocence
Love was not started to be evil
It is all fated.

2004-06-20T02:48:00.000-07:00

You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl
who always has a crush and is writing their
name on all your books. You are a hopeless
romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you
take love seriously, but still play any chance
you get. You can have a lot if boys who are
friends, but waiting for that perfect
boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged
because there are no sparks but even if the
smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You
believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont
be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about
risks.

hahaz

2004-06-20T02:29:00.000-07:00

tHe Mv of de week is PERFECT MAN!!! this is one of de best mvs, especially the last part tho the song isnt bout perfect man..but still it R0X.

pOem 0f de Daez

2004-06-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

Tempted to your seducation am i
Appeals to none but me
Sorrow carved in my eyes
Facing the reality
Longed to live in surreality
Vengeful i felt
Accumulated over seconds
Snubbing was my only choice
Gracious was not me
To accept everything with a smile
Hearing your hurt
Made me ponder
Confusions, i struggle to think
Perhaps this was really the right way
Not to be loved nor wanting to love
Claimed as loveless
Forever unsolved

haix...

2004-06-19T00:31:00.000-07:00

Today was quite sucky. I was suppose to go shopping with my aunt n bro, in the end, i cam bax by myself. I had a quarrel with them half-way. If my aunt lurves my bro so much, she could have ask me not to come along. But you know wot? She was the one who have a date with me AT first. And somehow my bro tag along. This was not the first time. It happens everytime. And i always have to change my venue for my bro. It is not fair right. SO what if im the eldest! I have my limits too. I know i may be subborn, obstinate, spoilt and so on. But do yew think i wanted it this way? I wasn't born this way. Stubborness is inherited, i was never spoilt until both of yew spoilt me. And now, you claim im incorrigible. WTF? Damn it! If you hate me tt much, i should not be born. I cant choose. And now, i karnt stop crying. Maybe, i should end my life someday. Perhaps, the world wuld be sooo much betta! Yew may think im silly for getting angry over such a lil thing, but tis isnt all tt. Im on war with one of my friends. How could life get any better? It seems tt im such a person full of hatred and all...maybe i am.
Haiz...

FiNaLlY

2004-06-18T04:02:00.000-07:00

My first official post. lalallalala...hahaz. Hmm...miracle, i was in a good mood today considering the fact that i did not have enough sleep. I actually had this blog like weeks ago? It was BARE. I was not really into what they called "blog" until today. I was bored so i decided to change the layout and so on. Seconds turns into minutes, minutes into hours. And i was HOOKED on!!! hahahaz...orh yeah..must visit my fanfic!!
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yup!!!! i think thats what i wanted to say todae. I finally felt at peace. I was not really myself the past few days. Was into quarrels and so on...im basically sick of it..hahaz..what to do? It makes life more interesting!!! =)
okiies
gtg
ciao~
huggies kissies luvviieesss

hahaz...poEM 0f The dAE

2004-06-18T03:10:00.000-07:00

Sorrow

Clueless i am
It still remains
Knowing whats wrong and right
Hopeless may be what u said
Cold-blooded I may be
But that’s not what i want to be
I was forced
Crying may be my only choice
Not to be mistaken
My heart bleeds
Yet that is only one of the little things you don't know
words cant be used to explain
Trust is essential
Treasuring was not my forte
Neither was wisdom
I admit to that
Adamant pounding
Silently torturing me
My tears dried
Do you even see my tear-stained cheek?
Fate –I wish- was my reason
Why did comprehension slip between us?
My excuse was ‘Vice versa’
Is it true that only till then
Did we separated
As time passes people change
It applies to both of us too, i guess
Regret
Its too late to speak of
Soulful secrets was once shared
Enemies we became
Melodies sung, tune rhymes
Was that what we were, what we became?
Detrimental effects
Parted to soar high
No longer the same,
Greetings solemn
Tone icy
Goodbye was the only word left
Which we forgot to say
To you, Goodbye
Rows of tears dripped to remember you
My ex-friend
For you, Thank you

credits to Amberle

wheeee!!!!!

2004-06-17T20:03:00.000-07:00

I finally decided on this skin. After lyke shooo many...phew...hehheez..yesh..im in a haveanly mood...did i spell it wrongly..naw..whu cares~ XD anw..i gtg.byee